Another scattershot update. Really, is there any other kind of update? Here's a brief overview of my past six months summarized in both emoticons and text.
Happy: I went on a vacation! Portugal's Algarve region for two blissful weeks. It was todo otimo and I will go again. I came back all excited to paint what I saw.
Worried: Had enough commissions and sales to sustain me through May but then everything mysteriously slowed down.
Sad: My Mom died on June 25. Cancer. This is hard. If you've ever been through the death of a parent, you know how it goes. It's a trauma that feels like it happened yesterday and forever ago all at once.
Bittersweet: We went to Alaska because that was the that last family vacation we'd planned to go on and Dad still wanted to go. The trip was already booked and Mom had hand-picked all the excursions.
Grief is something we all face eventually. I find I don't care as much about commissions and survival as much as just coping with everyday emotions and getting out of bed every day. I have savings and I figure the lack of work activity is because the universe was making room for me to deal. So I deal. I wrote her obituary, I gave her eulogy, and I even made one of those "Celebration of Life" video presentations that everyone does nowadays. As the designated "creative" in the family, this was assumed to be my realm and it was.
Now I'm just trying to remember what I used to do every day. Doing what the living do, I guess. I feel like Billy Pilgrim in Slaughterhouse-Five. And so it goes.